So we're back from our road trip, it was... right... next subject! The day of my last entry they surprised us with the inspection and appraisal. Everything with our house is perfect. We're moving towards closing on Tuesday! Yay!

So I've been experiencing some things with my pregnancy lately and I'm kind of freaking out. Things are painful. I have 3 separate types of pain. First, Jayden is just getting big and he's heavy. I can feel the weight of him and the pressure it is putting on me, it's not pleasant but it is to be expected and only going to get worse. Second, I've been experiencing a pinching/jabbing pain that I am told is round ligament pain and totally normal since the week of my wedding which was nearly 2 months ago. Last, I am having contractions. It is the only way to explain it. I get a sharp, breath-taking pain that lasts a minute or two then goes away. The more active I am (like packing, cleaning, etc) the worse it gets - at least it happens more frequently. It literally feels like my body is contracting... It is constricting and causing me pain, and it scares me. I know Braxton-Hicks are supposed to be normal, but they aren't supposed to be painful yet and they aren't supposed to be frequent. What I am feeling is both painful and frequent. Now I'm trying to just be patient, I go to the doc on the 7th and I plan on talking to her when I go, I am just a little scared.

Everyone keeps telling me "things are only going to get worse" and this statement is freaking me out. I'm already huge! I am vertically challenged, I have no torso, I knew I was gonna get big... but I can't imagine my poor stomach stretching out any further than it already has... Sleeping is getting difficult, he's heavy inside of me and it just hurts.... And like I said earlier, he's heavy and I can feel his weight as he grows... All of this is "only going to get worse!" Holy S*** are you serious??? I am freaking out a bit! lol

I just hope that my family understands and loves me when it comes to moving day... I am realizing more and more that I can't do a whole lot. I feel a bit worthless and helpless... I just have a really hard time giving up control and letting other people do everything for me! Poor me, what a sad little post. I guess i just needed to get this off my chest lol. I'll write a happier post next time :)

So yesterday I had the opportunity to go to a private showing of the new Batman film at Jordan Commons. Beej's buddy Travis works for an awesome company that allowed him to bring friends and family with to the showing! It was awesome! The movie is fantastic! Heath Ledger did a phenomenal job! I'm even glad I went to see it in the theater (and if you know me, you know that is huge, cuz I hate theaters!). It is also one of those that I will definitely be purchasing when it is released! If you liked Batman Begins, you will love this one!

Tonight we're going on a road trip! Heading to Logan tonight, leaving Friday morning for Idaho Falls, coming back to Logan Saturday night probably, then home to SLC on Sunday! I haven't seen my family since the wedding, which was nearly 2 months ago! Stupid gas prices!!!!

Our appraisal and inspection is scheduled for the first of next week. I am going today to see the house again, I'm going to take a bunch of pictures. If I can figure it out, I will post them all on here for you to see! I'm very proud of our first house! I'm so excited!!!!!

It's been a while since my last post. BJ and I have been very busy with things, but I have a lot of awesome updates and only a little bit of time!

First, and most importantly, IT'S A BOY!!!!!!!!!! We found out on the 15th that I am having a boy, his name will be Jayden Chandler Hahn. We are all very excited. The Hahn name would have ended with BJ and his brother Matt, so everyone was hoping for a boy to carry on the Hahn legacy! haha. Looks like the Hahn's will live to see another generation! I was excited because I have 3 brothers. I am better with boys than I am with girls. Granted, I still want a girl someday, but only one. Lol, I essentially want my family: 3 boys, 1 girl. My ever so eloquent and loving father said "Good! They are much easier" when I told him it was a boy.

Next, BJ and I are buying our first house! We started the pre-approval process at the end of June, and then started looking at houses shortly there after. We have a fabulous agent, Toni Allen, who does this in her spare time, but is amazing. She found the house we made an offer on. It is a great home. It was very well taken care of. The couple who built the home are the ones who are selling it to us. We accepted their counter offer, and the inspection/appraisal are scheduled for next week! We gave our landlord notice and we have to be out of our condo by August 13, so the closing has to happen by Aug 8th so that my Logan crew can come down and help me move on the weekend :) They're all so sweet! (Another perk of 3 brothers!!). The house is perfect for us. It has a big kitchen, hardwood floors, a finished basement, 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, 3 family rooms. It has an open floor plan and the yard is phenomenal! It is so private and has giant trees. It is so exciting! I can't wait to have a BBQ with all my friends and family in my own home! The best part for me is that I will have a bedroom for my baby. I will have a place for him and all of his stuff. I can paint how I want to, I can decorate how I want, I can make any change that my budget will allow.

I hope you are all doing well and I apologize for being an airhead lately. As you can see I've been quite busy and focused on other things. I love you all and I promise I'll get better at staying in touch! I'll post again soon :)

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I am 18-19 weeks pregnant right now. Every day I am amazed by the miracle that is growing inside of me. I may be wrong about what I think I feel, but I don't care. It is my opinion of my pregnancy and how I believe things are happening... and ALL of it amazes, intrigues, and excites me. I can feel the baby getting heavier. I can feel his/her weight putting pressure on me moreso now than ever before. I can feel the baby stretching his/her arms and legs... It is amazing! I can feel a human growing inside of me. That is insane! I can't even describe this experience!

I am past most of the crappy stuff. I still have to pee every 5 minutes, I'm expanding and I just look HUGE! There are body parts that hurt like hell and other ones that are just sore and crampy all the time... Aside from that stuff, I am at the part of pregnancy that is really quite enjoyable! It's just a miracle. It is an enjoyable, amazing, gift that I am lucky enough to experience!

I have my next ultrasound on July 15, where we will hopefully find out whether "bean" is a boy or a girl :) I will keep you posted!